Lifestyle, Months in Retrospect

November in Retrospect

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Happy December!

Last time we talked, I was avoiding social media and wallowing in the shallow darkness of my near-depressed mind. Things weren’t awful but they weren’t great. I existed in a fog of “Everything is happening, and I am exhausted”.

Since then, we’ve had Thanksgiving (and Black Friday and Cyber Monday and a sudden influx of green and red decor) here in the States. I had 5.5 days off of work, away from the internet, and hidden from people. It was fucking fabulous.

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Lifestyle, Mental Health

Checking In While I’m Checked Out

Hey, friends!

The past few weeks have been hard. Between the encroaching holidays, work picking up, starting birth control, and Depression kicking in my front door — I’m exhausted. The sort of exhaustion that’s like: I didn’t get much sleep last night. Or the night before. Or the past six weeks…but at the same time, I’ve done nothing but lay around.

This whole month of November has been so frustrating. I had loads of ideas for blog posts for this month and to schedule for Blogmas, there were outdoorsy things I wanted to do before it got too cold, it’s NaNoWriMo and I haven’t written one single word that hasn’t been a tweet, Instagram caption, or comment somewhere. So many things I wanted to do, so little inspiration.

For the first couple of weeks, I think I spent any and all free time mindlessly scrolling through social media, which obviously did not help my mind. So, for the past week, I’ve tried to stay away from it (Facebook and Twitter, primarily). I’ve spent more time on Pinterest and Instagram, soaking in inspiration and creativity while not having the motivation to execute any ideas. Then, finally, I started reading again on Thursday. I picked up a book and could finally connect with it, get lost in it. I read another book on Saturday. I’ll start another one today if I get a free minute at work.

And here I am, November 20th, writing a rambly blog post for the sake of publishing something and reaching out to you all, and proving to myself that the words are still there somewhere. I still have loads of posts to write and publish/schedule, so look forward to those. (Sneak peak? Book reviews, our weekend trip to Knoxville, holiday goodness, and a sappy “How We Met” story since Jonny and I just celebrated our first year of marriage!) 🙂

Most of the people I’ve talked to in the ~Real World~ have mentioned how slowly their days are going, their low energy, and their desire for the year to just be over–but also their excitement for cozying up and celebrating holidays. Lots of ups and downs happening, I feel. What have you all been up to the past few weeks? I’ve been keeping up on blog posts (I think), but how have you been? What’s new?

We’ll be back to regularly scheduled programing soon.

~ Kaiya


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Lifestyle, Months in Retrospect

October in Retrospect

*blinks furiously at the passing of time* I just wrote September in Retrospect. How did this happen.

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For all of the things I wanted to do this month (from carving pumpkins to getting started on my Christmas shopping to surpassing 200 blog followers), October was so not productive. But that’s okay! It was still a mostly great month.

HIGHLIGHTS REEL

  • Read a few books
  • Went to a kids’ Halloween party
  • Saw Queens of the Stone Age and Royal Blood live
  • Raised over $400 for Puerto Rico
  • Went for a 6-mile walk
  • (Not great, but…) my great gramps passed away

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Tuesday: Notes for Followers, Weekly Goodies

To Grace

Happy Tuesday Friday! As you know, the past week (and a half or so) has been rocky, so this week’s Note to a Follower is late. Grace, I apologize and sincerely thank you for your patience. My letter to you is mostly a response to your post on mental health. I hope this finds you well. ❤

As a reminder, here is the schedule for 100 Notes for 100 Followers:

19 September – Racheldone
26 September – AfroIrish done
3 October – Cindy – done
10 October – Shazdone
17 20 October – Grace – done
24 October – Jules
31 October – Rachel (Shed52)
7 November – Little Lion

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Reading, Reviews

Book Review: Depression & Other Magic Tricks by Sabrina Benaim

Depression & Other Magic Tricks by Sabrina Benaim
Published by Button Poetry

★★★★ (4/5 stars)

THIS IS A SPOILER-FREE REVIEW.

Thank you to NetGalley and Button Poetry for providing me with a copy of Depression & Other Magic Tricks in exchange for an honest review. All thoughts are my own and are in no way swayed by the gift.

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Mental Health

The Cycle of Anxiety and Depression

“Are you afraid of anxiety and depression?”

Jonny and I are sitting at our dining room table (read: our card table, decorated with a pretty white and turquoise tablecloth, located in the section of apartment designated the dining room despite its lack of room-indicating walls). We’re talking over empty plates, too full to move from the fold-able chairs to comfortable seats.

Content Warning: anxiety, depression, overcompensation

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Months in Retrospect

August in Retrospect

Guys, August has come and gone! The end of August always feels like the end of summer to me. When I was in school, it meant there were just a few days left of summer vacation because schools in Michigan start up the Tuesday following Labor Day. But I’m a full grown adult now (how and when did that happen?) and while it still feels like the end of summer, I’m buoyed by the fact that I no longer have to deal with the education system. 🙂 (*devoutly ignores looming student loans*)

So, here is my August in Retrospect, the first in a series I plan on doing at the end of every month. I’ll focus on a few categories that have been most prominent this month, say a bit about each, and wrap it up with my favorite blogs for the past few weeks and what I’m looking forward to in September.

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Mental Health

Managing Stress & Anxiety with a Task Tracker

A Facebook friend of mine posted about her new method for handling her anxiety levels, routines, and to-do lists. Through organizing my priorities and detailing my tasks, and sorting them into a simple task tracker, I hope to turn her idea into something that helps with my own anxiety (which has been at high levels for a few weeks). It’s too easy to get caught up in all of the things I didn’t accomplish in a day, and I think tracking my tasks will help me focus on the fact that I can and do get things done.

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Mental Health

Depression, Anxiety, and Handling Both

Before I get into this, please note that I am not a medical professional. My thoughts and advice come from my experiences, careful internet research, and discussions with others also suffering from/coping with anxiety and depression. This post will probably be the first of many on the subject of mental health.

I would first like to say some things that I see around a lot but cannot reiterate enough:

  • You are not alone. Many people suffer from mental health issues, and it’s okay. There are people out there who can/will/want to help you get through this. There are people out there who will listen to you, give you advice, and try to be there for you in whatever capacity you need them to.
  • There are people out there who are assholes. They’ll tell you that taking medicine makes you weak, that you’re not great to be around because you’re sad all the time; they’ll make you feel like a burden for needing help. They are wrong. Do not listen to them. (The voice at the back of your mind that says those things? Don’t listen to it, either.)
  • Your feelings (or lack of feelings if you happen to go through stages of apathy, a common sign/symptom of depression) are valid and important.
  • MEDICATIONS ARE NORMAL. GOOD. HELPFUL. NECESSARY. Having a headache? Take a painkiller. Sinus infection? Antibiotics. Feeling anxious? Take your meds. Depressed? Meds. Some people don’t need medications. Some people can get by on nature walks and spa days. Good for them. Sincerely. If you’re not one of those people, that’s okay.

I seem to see those points being made all over the internet. I scroll through Facebook a few times a day and see at least three text images with encouraging words to break the stigma around mental health. However, I rarely see the following “handy things to know” for people who are new to dealing with their poor mental health. So, I have some points to add to the discussion/awareness:

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